Les Feuilles Mortes

2006-08-29T00:59:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time, hasnt it? How is everyone doing on with their life? Fine I hope. Mine have been a hectic grasp of time. I never find the chance to slowly stroll my way into the MRT Station after work everyday. This explains my deeply regretted and apologetic absence from this wonderful place. I guess its human nature at every certain point of time to release their emotions and thoughts verbally or otherwise as a form of relieve, de-stress, unwind, or whatever they call it. My excuse for this literature diarrhea would be for closure. As much as I would like to deny I am a sucker for closure however let’s not get that confused with sentimentality because I am not.

In days to come young, depressed man-to-be creatures like me, Andrew, Andy, Leroy and many more innocent homosapiens across this tiny island will be mercilessly conscripted into the brutal, sinister and vicious mechanism plotted by the government to exact revenge on its citizen under the cloak of disguise: the notorious army. Sighs! I guess that is the price to pay for claiming ownership to that pinky flimsy card us all proudly safe keep in our wallet. So hereby I bid you farewell, loved ones, treasured friends, family, bed, TV, civilization, the land of liberty which we stepped on and the sweet air of freedom we breathe.

Nevertheless it would be a new phase of life for us and many more as the girl behind each unsuccessful boy playing soldier. In retrospect so much has changed and the sense of familiarity eroding, for the good or worse? Gazing ahead, I ponder what is there of to desire in the alien future. Over lunch last weekend, my Aunt commented that the September 11 got her seriously thinking about her job security and eventually she did seek a different employment opportunity at another bank in the midst of wide scale retrenchment. The nature of the incident ushers in an era of unpredictability and dispels the notion of certainty, she said. It inevitably deprives everyone the cushion of conformability under the illusion of familiarity. And scare you not; this is the era that we will carve a career out and earn a decent living to form a family and raise our children.

It brought to my mind a part of this ideology I was reading from in this book "Bush at War". The advisers were the best brains ever in the world, bagged with decades of invaluable experience in leadership, and boots on the ground were a bunch of intensively trained and highly motivated men. They tirelessly held numerous hours and hours of comprehensive meetings, scrutinizing, analyzing, strategizing and planning over days, weeks, and months and alas! Finally when that first shot was fired across the dessert, the field of the battle, the light sparked in the complete darkness surrounding and that echo rang across the night into the depth of fear in everyone’s heart. Unprecedented events slowly spiral into troubles then chaos and ultimately land themselves into a quagmire that baffles the commander in chief how did it all begin with?

Isnt the scenario quite similar to so many of us how we negotiate our life through? We think and plan, plan and think, strived and lazed, work begin to multiply, concurrent events starts to swarm and we paddle through it over the days and finally we ask ourselves how did we end up here? Doesn’t seem like the place I initially planned to step foot.

Sir Winston Churchill (Im a great fan of him):

Never, never, never believe any war will be smooth and easy, or that anyone who embarks on the strange voyage can measure the tides and hurricanes he will encounter. The statesman who yields to war fever must realize that once the signal is given, he is no longer the master of policy but the slave of unforeseeable and uncontrollable events.

We must not underrate the gravity of the task which lies before us or the temerity of the ordeal, to which we shall not be found unequal. We must expect many disappointments, and many unpleasant surprises, but we may be sure that the task which we have freely accepted is one not beyond the compass and the strength of ourselves. In this solemn hour it is a consolation to recall and to dwell upon our repeated efforts for peace. All have been ill-starred, but all have been faithful and sincere.

Outside, the storms of war may blow and the lands may be lashed with the fury of its gales, but in our own hearts this Sunday morning there is peace. Our hands may be active, but our consciences are at rest.

..........The Knights of the Round Table, the Crusaders, all fall back into the past-not only distant but prosaic; these young men, going forth every morn to guard their native land and all that we stand for, holding in their hands these instruments of colossal and shattering power, of whom it may be said that

Every morn brought forth a noble chance
and every chance brought forth a noble knight

2006-05-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

guess tonight everyone's fixated on the election. can see how quiet the street is when I came back from work earlier.

Just wanna show u guys a photo of the worker's party rally at Hougang last Sunday. Went to the one at East Coast on Monday, WP contesting for Aljunied GRC. Man, I was really a little touched when I saw the crowd, I can't count, at least 3 to 4 thousand people carrying umbrella walking towards the stage. The rain was huge in the evening but everyone stayed on. The most funny thing was I saw one familiar face standing in front of me. MR TANG!! Our biz stat lecturer!! hahahas, went over and chatted wif him. He came all the way from West Coast. Steady ar! Finally had my first chance to hear the Teochew King Low Thia Kiang speak. Always wondered why he's so powerful in the Lorong Ah Soo area where my grandma lives, but listening him speak, I can't help but... YAY!!! and the thunderous applause follows = )

okay back to watching the teevee, see if Aljunied GRC will go into whoose hands...think everyone can conclude the political ground in Singapore is shifting

2006-05-01T23:30:00.000-07:00

Haven't been updating this page for a period of time. Have been rather busy this month. Time really flies, today marks the end of the 1 month I've been working at the Ministry of Environment. Working late at night in office used to be relaxing and comforting but now because of the election things are getting hectic and everyone's on their best performance = )

think after this I'll be back doing exhibitions. Will be going back to school on next Sat to sit for an exam. Anyone will be dere? lemme know.

Okay too long never write blog, really don't know what to write anymore, my mind's complete blank now. Anyway finally got 1 free day of off tmr, thinking of going to attend the election rally tmr night. Ha ha seems rather fun = )

2006-03-31T01:35:00.000-08:00

With much dismay I finally conclude, Stupid Andrew is road blind. last night wanted to go eat supper at Geylang but in the end we landed ourselves somewhere nowhere. but the food was great though. went to apply for SMU today with him. then he raised the idea of going with him to Minnesota and stay wif his cousin for 2 weeks. It's kinda my dream to leave Asia and set foot on the soil of the United States of America, the great super advanced country of the world. Money isn't an issue, time wasn't an issue, but something is holding me back from going. I think I know what is it. I don't wanna leave behind my dear. I will miss her. and worst part, I hafta take the 20 hours flight alone and meet that idiot there. 20 hourrrssss!! it's gonna kill me. think maybe I should save the money and wait till the next time when I graduate from Uni, saved enough money and travel with my dear. Richmond-->Washington-->Philadelphia-->Boston.

We went to see A.D.E (aka FAT GIRL; named by Yappie boi, who by the way now has her own namecard as a product designer) product design show at Bugis. was kinda interesting, so many funny funny product. something like those u will find in Molecule. it's outside the National Library if anyone is interested.

and we discover a new venue to watch movies, Cathay Cineplex = ) nice nice place. wanna bring my dear go.

2006-03-29T23:26:00.000-08:00

Listening to Soul Jazz (William So's jazz)

Hey Everyone!
How is everybody? Haven't been keeping in contact with many.
Trying very hard to think of what to write here, but the only thing I can think of is my little HO Jia Li. Hope she does well for her interview = ) Anyway we're watching Ice Age2 later at P.S in the late afternoon. So let's see who I'll bump into dere later : )

I WANT TO SING KTV!!! it's been a long time man.

Jus to update everyone, I'll be starting work on Sat again, Sighs! call center of DBS. ytd company my dear down to Citibank at Raffles Place for her interview. Andy was working at the Ocean Tower across the road for HSBC. kinda weird feeling, a financial district whereby you deal and trade with people opposite your window or upstairs and downstairs all congregated in the same small lil area in Spore.
you know, many many years ago during the Depression in America, when the stock market crashed to it's century bottom low, a few hundred ppl working in the financial district of New York all stopped their work and came out to the main streets and stared in dismay at the big screen of stock prices. Just before mid noon when the market closed for the break, things was really bad, 10 over people jumped from their windows and committed sucide. few hundred others lost their jobs immediately. same happened during the HK financial Crisis in 1989, ten over jumped out of their windows in the Central Financial District in H.K when the market crashed.

It's been a hundred years since the last depression. you know the cycle, the next global market crisis is coming soon when the Dow Jones crash. then you know where to see flying superman and woman? make your way down to Shenton Way and Raffles Place : )

2006-03-28T09:13:00.000-08:00

2006-03-13T20:23:00.000-08:00

My best buds n their partners = )

2006-02-27T11:28:00.000-08:00

I took on the position of a painter, furniture mover, customer service officer within the span of a few days in the previous week. heard frm my co-workers that our foreign counterparts at the painting house, the thai workers are paid only a mere 16 dollars for one freaking hard day of painting. that's totally so exploitation at its worst sense. We boast to be a nation of equality and a society based on meritocracy and yet we torture them this way.

caught the movie Steven Spielberg's "Munich" last night wif my dear. guess she was pretty much falling asleep throughout the entire movie, the only tym she was awake was when she was eating her chocolate cake and when I was feeding her my fries. but she still persisted on. when the going gets tough the tough gets going and that's the spirit baby! = )

thought the movie was rather good though. but definitely not one for commercial success. don't think many will like it, so my recommendation, don't watch. anyway jus to satisfy your curiousity, the movie's about a group of Israeli's security agents hunting down a bunch of Palestanians terrorists. its kind of a paradox afterall, everytime you gun down a terrorist, 6 more are being replaced, even more vengeful, ever more blood thirsty out to get back at you and in the end the blood cycle continues. so, the question is, is exacting revenge the real solution? quote from Sun Tze's art of war, war is a moral contest and the winner and loser emerges even before the war is fought.

2006-02-26T09:09:00.000-08:00

Finished a week of work at the Asian Aerospace. Quite fun, not bad. Know a lot of funny ppl. hahahas. Next week shall start work at Singapore Expo International Exhibition Fair. Anyone heading towards dere lemme know, yea?
*yawns* I miss my dearrrrrr........ good luck for your interview today!!! but we can't meet up then : (((((

OEI EDEN TOH FASTER WAKE UP, CAN? I VERY HUNGRY ALR.
and ANDY LIN u cheapo FASTER GET UR ASS BACK TO SERANGOON then we can eat mee goreng tonight if not next week everyone will be so busy : ((

2006-02-20T23:52:00.000-08:00

Applied for Uni's and finally completed my CV's. will mass send out soon. today started working on a temp job. think this's the first time I ever actually like a job that I'm doing. Usually its just for the pure sake of money.

which other temp job gives u a chance to see and speak to 25 ambassadors from the world & Asia's top military leaders in 3 hours, gives u a walkie talkie and a security pass and act like some club bouncers and still pays u 7 dollars an hour to do it. cool right? basically an usher to escort the consuls, diplomats, ambassadors and generals at the Opening Ceremony of the Asian Aerospace Convention. and I was like, hey isn't that my 4th Aunt in the crowd at the hall. haha she was one of the organiser of the event.

escorted the ambassadors from Laos, Vietnam, Myanmmar, Austria, Norway, Ireland, Australia, France, Finland, Belgium, UAE, counsul from U.S, Mongolia (weird ambassador from weird country), Italy, Egypt, Canada, Germany, Thai Chief of Air force, Vice President of ST Aerospace. really an honour. Saturday is the last day and March there is the Asian Pacific Maritime Convention. Guys if u need tix lemme know.

2006-02-18T02:56:00.000-08:00

Just for the record this month:
Happy Birthday Mum
Happy Birthday Leroy & Andy
Happy Birthday Bullshit
Happy Birthday Jia Ling

5 birthdays in a month. phew!
and the good news........ school's a closure, baby!
guess will be missing a few like WenJie, Zheng and mmmm that's bout it? Don't really interact that much with my classmates so... yea to hell with it. I'M OUT OF SCHOOL = ) but still I would like to keep a copy of our class photos for remembrance. think that photo was nice.

think the only one thing I learned after 3 years in this course is I don't want to have anything to do with this course anymore in future. hahahas. Guessed I had enough of Maritime thingy.

heard something damn funny n I've finally come out with a theory to explain it , will update u guys when we meet. still thinking... thinking...

p.s: love my dearie's vday prez a lot & a lot = )

2006-02-14T18:24:00.000-08:00

H.A.P.P.Y B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y to my best frienz Andy & Leroy = )
cheers to our friendship and love forever.
more fotos coming up.

2006-02-09T02:37:00.000-08:00

These were the 2 photos taken at the housewarming the other day. Didn't spend much time there but managed to catch up with the ex colleagues from my previous attachment company. They were nice folks. haha. afterwards headed over to Andrew's place for bbq on that day. He gave me the best news: giving up his Bang & Olusen earpiece for a hundred bucks. welll, what should I say, worth considering, hahaha...

Time has revolutionized into a commodity so spare recently. Bounded for a course of inevitable fatigue soon. But I'm enjoying every minute of it. School is an end for me finally in less then 2 weeks. Halleujah! Praise the lord. But I'm looking forward for what comes after that! Dear, you know what is that = )
nonetheless plenty of activites with Maple club coming up. I'll hereby undertake the role of the organiser, pls sign up soon with me. Lets debauch and indulge in nothing but absolute pleasure and holidays for the next few months before getting conscripted into that filthy place!

2006-01-30T20:52:00.000-08:00

As requested by Mr Neo, here's for u:

Taurus with Cancer
Usually this makes a good combination. Cancer likes a good home with much affection. This is what every Taurean hopes to find when undertaking conventional responsibilities. From an emotional point of view, there is nothing in the stars that bars the prospect of a happy married life between these two partners. One thing the Taurean must remember is that Cancer is exceedingly sensitive, and will crawl into a shell if unhappy emotionally.

This is a good combination as both signs are naturally attracted by the others sense for feelings and emotions. Taurus will appreciate cancer's inherent caring attitude and cancer will appreciate taurus' homey nature.

2006-01-30T12:40:00.000-08:00

Gong Hei Fat Choy!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE = )
looking at the stack of red packets piling in my drawers I can't stop smiling to myself and love whoever created this wonderful tradition of giving the young ones "ya shui qian"!! Chinese New Year's the best festival.

I feel more refreshed and new after Chinese New Year then the English one. So hereby I shall announce my this year new year resolution, to quit some undesirable habit of mine and promise to make my dear Ho Jia Li smile everyday and never make her cry = )

2nd's my mum's bday. 4th of Feb Yo-Yo finally moved her hse, HOUSE WARMING!! waited for so long to visit her new place. 12th lunch at A.D.E's place. Pastor Leroy and my honey no.2 Bing Liang's bday is coming.....YaY lots of good food and laughter again = ) 20th Mister Bulllshittt's bday.... 25th Aerospace show... this month's cool~~~~

2006-01-26T00:01:00.000-08:00

I can't continue my day without my HO JIA LI!
She completes me!
That's all I have to say. She's very important to me.
Thank you, ladies and gentleman.

2006-01-22T23:29:00.000-08:00

Just remember that when you're involved with a Libra, you're involved with a peacemaker, a diplomat, a balancer and a glamor puss. When you're involved with a Capricorn, you're involved with a father figure, an executive and a task master.

If you can give a Libra class, style, fairness and equality then you have a better chance of getting their love and affection. If you can give a Capricorn respect, status, power, and authority then you have a better chance of getting their love and affection.

TIP: Libra and Capricorn can create success by sharing a vision of the future.

Libra is a nice person and tends to be a bit more cultured and "better" than others. Usually, Libra is also diplomatic enough to keep your superiority complexes in check. The more that Libra becomes fair-minded, impartial and unprejudiced, the happier Libra becomes. Essentially, Capricorn is cautious, steadfast and reserved. Even as a child, Capricorn's personality was probably mature for the years.

Libra has the potential for much social intercourse and favorable public contact. To really thrive, Libra needs to be part of a loving, committed "marriage." With any luck Capricorn's life will get better and responsibilities will become more enjoyable over time. Capricorn can only fail by giving up. Never, never, never, never, never give up. Capricorn, you were made for management and leadership. Capricorn's ambitions are only limited by your self-esteem. Planning and work will pay off. Be sure to ask for a fair price for your efforts.

All things being equal, Libra prefers civil conversation. Libra usually does not find reason for raised voices or crude language at inappropriate times. Embarrassment can be an issue for Libra. Libra likes to ask for advice, but does not like to be told what to do. Libra needs a cushy job in a swanky environment.

You both like to start things and to take the initiative. You're each restless, energetic, outgoing, opportunistic and ambitious. Probably, you're both more busy than bored.

2006-01-22T23:19:00.000-08:00

CAPRICORN + LIBRA compability: 100%

Libra is very social and prefers a life style that involves lots of interaction with others. For example, a job that does not involve communication with others is very distasteful to Libra. Capricorn is more concerned with career, stature, and practical affairs than Libra, and many times Libra wishes that Capricorn would lighten up, take life less seriously, and simply be more fun to be with. Capricorn seems a little old-fashioned at times too, which is frequently not agreeable with Libra. You can help complement each other also, with Capricorn contributing more to establishing a secure, well-founded plan for your lives and the future of your children (if you are married and have children), while Libra takes the time to maintain social contacts and keep life in balance, making sure that pressures of work and other responsibilities do not become overwhelming. Pleasure and aesthetics are important to Libra, and less so to Capricorn. Also, Capricorn tends to be autocratic and Libra is more democratic or egalitarian.

Libra is a warm, affectionate person who needs people, especially a very close, loving partner to share life with. Conversation, companionship, togetherness, and being half of a tight couple are very important to Libra. Capricorn is often more self-sufficient emotionally, or is afraid of neediness, dependency and emotional vulnerability. Libra finds security in personal relationships, while Capricorn finds it in work, accomplishment, and material success. Capricorn in fact, takes life seriously and tends to work more than necessary, while Libra is more balanced and wants to spend time socialising or relaxing more than Capricorn does.

Capricorn must be very careful not to harshly criticise or judge Libra. There is a strong tendency for Libra to feel blocked, frustrated, and discouraged by Capricorn. Typically, Capricorn will feel surprised by Libra's feelings of frustration and anger, and feel that Libra is just being overly sensitive to criticism. There is an element of truth to both viewpoints: Capricorn tends to be too critical of Libra and Libra tends to be too sensitive to the criticism; the combination can be disastrous! Libra may try to ignore the problem, but ignoring the problem will not cause the problem to disappear. This is a relationship that can help both of you mature a great deal; you are able to build a secure, stable life together and face many challenges and responsibilities together that you have been trying to avoid. However, the tendency to become overly concerned with your responsibilities and to be too conservative, cautious, and restrictive towards each other must not get out of hand, or you will both feel severely confined and restricted by being together.

There is a poetic, fanciful quality to your conversations. Capricorn brings out the poet and dreamer in Libra. Communications on practical matters, however, may suffer and you both need to be wary of exaggerating or hiding, or deceiving each other. When with Capricorn, Libra is often confused, less clear and less precise than usual.

Irritations over relatively minor incidents and situations, combined with a tendency to have differing tastes, preferences, and interests may make an intimate, long-lasting relationship difficult. You do care a great deal for each other, though, and both of you feel exceedingly bad after a quarrel. If you can be tolerant of each other's differing attitudes, interests, and lifestyles, the negative tendencies of this astrological influence will be minimised.

Your relationship may or may not be long lasting, but it will always have a flavour of unpredictability, spontaneity, and surprise. Periodic unexpected events and changes create an unsettled feeling between you, as if you can never quite relax and settle down into a comfortable, established pattern. While you will never be bored with one another, neither will you ever feel quite certain or peacefully secure. However, if your temperaments enable you to be highly flexible and adventurous and willing to take risks, you may be able to ride through the ups and downs.

You are destined to act as "awakeners" for one another. One of you may open the other to something totally new and different, even shocking, which revolutionises the way you view the world and your place in it ?something you may once have considered weird or too "far out". Always there will be the element of experimentation, of following the unexpected twist in the road. Being with one another encourages you both to be more free, unconventional, and impulsive than you might be otherwise.

You love each other very deeply and the attraction between you is very strong, but your relationship is also prone to emotional ups and downs. It is not unusual for the quality of feelings that you have for each other to be quite different and this can lead to misunderstandings. For example, Libra may be in a romantic mood at a given time while Capricorn is feeling friendly, but not romantic. The roles sometimes reverse, and you find that your feelings frequently just won't synchronise. You also easily hurt each other's feelings, not realising how much the other person loves and cherishes you. By being flexible and adaptable, and really trying to sympathise with each other, you can avoid these problems most of the time.

Sexual rhythm can be very much out of tune in this relationship. One partner may even find difficulty reaching a climax or having a hearty orgasm. Long hours of foreplay or masturbation may be necessary to assist the overall sexual expression.

Your intellectual rapport is very good. You share lots of ideas and interests in community affairs, political or social issues, and various clubs and organisations.

2006-01-18T01:21:00.000-08:00

Tonight's one of the best I ever had for so long. Finally solved some of my doubts and misery, but I understand, I will be here to support you = ) and I really promise you I quit smoking very soon. I mean it.

thanks buds, you guys are the still the best. brothers forever! remember!! any one of us create a problem, don't worry, straightway got 3 god fathers here!! hahahas.... cannot stop laughing...

2006-01-17T01:35:00.000-08:00

Tangible are the movement between lines of light and the echo of your laughter. which is all I desire to hear.

The footsteps stroking our energy whistle melodic tenderness that nature look upon as their comerades. If you would only allow thoughts to hang on to vanishing marks. Trails, they are miles behind the ease, the function of my desire to dissolve growing, gaining. I left my mind on your line of memories.

Surfaces of fragility are evaporating becoming engravings of remembrance, the remembrance once gripped, touching the core of everything, everyday. I want to share my everyday with you, every time.

Age itself is a passing phrase. Perpetual is the cycle of sensation that teaches, that propells heaven to sing when one listens, if there are hearts that count. I love you.

2006-01-17T01:23:00.000-08:00

Alas! I heard the things I most didn't want to hear. and finally managed to set my mind straight after hearing what Sandra said over dinner. Sorry to Eden, had to call you in the afternoon to disturb u. but talking to Andy the Qiang Bi, so many late night chats still couldn't solve my problem. Anyway I totally agree with what Sandra said and hold it firm. Ah Dra said it takes really a lot of factors in placed together to finally find someone you really like and when you finally actually do, cherish it and fight for it. Once that person is gone, you won't be able to find that same feeling for that particular person again. Sometimes things are just so self explanatory that are perceived beyond comprehension with the most basic common sense. The fact that you can prevent it from happening doesn't change the fact that it was going to happen. So why bother?

I only know I miss her when I don't get to see her and I want to share my everyday with her. So I choose to ignore anything else and continue moving on, I may be wrong at the end of the day but at least I know I won't regret.

2005-12-31T23:50:00.000-08:00

It's less then 20 minutes to the ushering of the new year 2006 = )
But I don't really feel happy about it. I'm always envious of ppl who can party and celebrate these festive. I always feel the opposite.

Anyway had a family gathering to celebrate my grandpa & ma 55th wedding anniversary at Grand Shanghai, opposite my previous attachment company Great World. We had 10 tables on the hall with a live jazz band playing to a Shanghainese songbird singing retro songs. Ambience was good but I was rather preoccupied with staring at my phone. So the old couple came in by the foyer and all the grandchildrens including me companied them walk down the aisle to the table. Don't u think it's so romantic? having spend almost 3 quarter of their life walking by each other side to celebrate this day wif all the grandchildrens, 3rd generation of the family.

They really lived to that oath of marriage when it says even in times of sickness or wealthiness, they will be there for each other. I think its really so romantic. even though I think it was rather extravagant to throw a banquet. but I mean come'on lar they slogged half their lives providing, its their turn now to enjoy themselves, what's that few thousand bucks? why scrimp and save? for who? not as if u can bring it with u after u leave this world. why not splurge it jus to make yourself and ppl you loved and cared to be happy = ) now that is life!

2005-12-28T02:23:00.000-08:00

W.E.L.C.O.M.E B.A.C.K to S.I.N.G.A.P.O.R.E -- nice Adelene

ignore my blurred face in that pic (screw that Andy for his photography skills), the attraction was that X'mas tree outside Paragon. this year decoration was nice. probably I just didn't take note during past years.

I'm still in such a festive mood. just can't get enough of that. and its less then 100 hours to reopen of school and that's a big big yucks!!!

I and Mr Lin is planning a cruise to nowhere trip for the Power Rangers. anyone interested? 2 to a room. gotta book early if u guys are agreeable. I'm kinda keen since I haven't enjoyed that luxury of being onboard a cruise boat. how much I miss that Sands Casino in Macau. it's hit the jackpot time again = ) though we don't know what the hell the buttons are for throughout the whole time. Just whack it and let the coins spill.

2005-12-27T01:12:00.000-08:00

I've been doing nothing but eat and eat and eat for the past few days.
Let me recollect what I've been doing for the xmas celebration.
Thursday, lunch wif Jia Li at tamp., had dinner with Yappie boi, Maggie and Ade then we watched The Promise at P.S.
Friday, met up wif Sop at Chinatown, went back to PACC Contr Line, met up with my da jie da Yor Yor for the bbq at Chevron. Angeline's 21st Birthday!! and for those who don't know, she shares the same birthday date as me and that is 2 XMAS BABIES = )))
Saturday XL treated me to a dinner at one Myanmmese restuarant outside penisula plaza.
Sunday dinner gathering at Leroy's place.
Monday it's BBQ TIME at my dai lou Wayne's place. there's where I met Xun and had the photos taken. we both lost the previous ones at Disney on Ice = (((
nvm I will never lose this new one = )

2005-12-26T17:26:00.000-08:00

Legend has it that sometime long long ago, in a galaxy far far away in some remote place in some dimension, lived 4 heavenly lovable guys and 4 beauteous girls. They lead a trouble-free life playing monopoly and mahjong every day, savouring spaghetti with tomato sauce, chilli crab, sausages, macademia nuted cake, cocktails, potatos every nitez when the sun sets over the horizon. After chatting over hours through dinner they will climb up the trees and live in the huts above there and enjoy the night view of their own forest with the blanket of stars covering them in comfort of friendship and love in this Chikikuku land in the Wu Lu Wu Lu island next to the Yuan de bu neng na city. However good times never last long, soon a tsunami striked and wrecked the entire forest. Given the agony of the moment, time was minimal, events were unfolding too fast for them to grasp, all 8 of them were washed out totally, only with Sandra strong enough to grab hold of a maple tree and broke the branches sticking out of it, and held one with only 1 leaf on it (for further details pls check out the bookstores for the second volume: Lord of the Leaf: The Maple Story). She held tight the branch and teared the leaf out. she crushed the leaf and divided it into 8 pieces, each for one with the names carved behind. Soon the 8 of them was swirled to different lands of the galaxy. but holding onto the 8 pieces of leaf, it gives them a mysterious sense of hope and life, a prophecy they'll know they meet again and be able to piece back to form one maple leaf shape and rebuild their lost homes. Soon the journey began to return to the chikikuku land and the marks the beginning of the story called the LORD OF THE LEAF which will soon be coming into all major bookstores and theatre when I have the time to write it....

the 8 power ranger: Justin (finger pointing to that, Andy, Eden, Leroy, Sandra, Xueyun, Cheryl,Jia Ling)

2005-12-26T01:31:00.000-08:00

2005-12-25T20:46:00.000-08:00

now at Leroy's hse. we just finished our super duper nice dinner!! very very nice the food. Leroy is such a fantastic host!!! and look at his alcohol collection at home... omg... now they're all in the room playing some games. I'm all alone outside the living hall updating my blog. looking at the empty table, I thought about how we enjoyed our dinner earlier : )YAM SENGGGGG!!!

okay now the list carries on:
Faisal
(my ever besty friend who never fails to wish my happy bday every yr)
Melody
(thanks for ur testi)
Boon Bin
Karen Lau
(thanks for the sms)
V.J
Slyvie
(thanks for the email)
Fan Wen Jing (my brisbane friend)
(thanks for the email)
Chun Mun
Zhen Yan
(on msn)
all the ppl who said to me in face:
Xueyun
Jia Ling
Bull Shit
Rene
Eve
2 of Eden's frien who I erm can't seem to remember their names
Sandra

2005-12-25T11:36:00.000-08:00

Thanks Thanks Thanks Thanks,
that seems to be all I've been saying for the past 12 hours.
really thank you to all of ya who smsed or called and screamed HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!

the list goes as follows:

Ru Ru
(thanks for ur call right on the dot of time)
Eden
(who called but I fell asleep, hahas)
Leroy
(very nice message, thanks bro)
XL
(thanks for ur treat at that burmese restaurant)
Wayne Dai Lou
(thanks for the call, and that cheap bastard yap didn't even sms me)
Jia Li
(I fell asleep too, sorry...haha)
Sophie
(who called last night)
Angel
(thanks for ur candle, still can't bear to burn the one u gave me last yr)
Yorienda
(love that zara shirt, muacks da jie da)
Clare
ZhenLing
(editted forward msg wif an additional happy birthday below, but still at least u remembered : ) 10s 10s 10s )
Jennifer
(merry xmas)
Annie Chan
Cheryl
Zixun
Cynthia
Marie
(wish everything goes well for u and ur new hubby)
Kit-gor
Helman
(really touched, he calls me every year even though we like totally don't meet up)
Uncle No

okay this's from last nitex 12a.m till now 11.34am. you guys still have another 12 hours to wish me, so what are u still waiting for??!!

MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE!! LETS PRAY FOR WORLD PEACE AND WISH EVERYTHING WORKS OUT FINE FOR ALL IN THIS WONDERFUL YEAR TO COME = )

2005-12-16T18:31:00.000-08:00

Thanks to everyone who wrote on my birthday card from Annie. Merry X'mas to you all = )

2005-12-13T18:04:00.000-08:00

thanx A.D.E, guess been feeling a lil down recently. I'm having my papers this week, after my ICAs, perhaps this weekend, Sunday, I make it up to you for a movie.

Lemme first ask Ash-tray whether the movie is nice? If she says its nice, we'll drag yappie boy and my big boss to watch together.

ASHLEY,
you watched the movie "Perhaps Love"? Is it nice? leave me a movie review at my tagboard, pls & thanks. btw nice Lamborgini! For being a loyal reader of my blog, I decided to get you one for X'mas. The Real-X diecast car scaled 1:72 Lamborgini that comes in yellow, red and black is for sale at Centrepoint 3rd floor, Toy-maker outlet for only $4.99!! buy one for yourself, I reimburse you later = )

anyway that was my last year X'mas present from A.D.E, that mini mini really mini cooper is proudly displayed on the shelf of my glass cabinet with a tag that boasts loudly "JUSTIN" enscribed by your lovely hands.

If Ash-tray says not nice, nah to hell with it, we'll still watch : ) I mean its like Jacky Cheung!!! I don't mind throwing 8 bucks down, making my minimal contribution to the box office in support of my ever idol!! I hope it spurs him to stop his threatical and musical nonsense and get back to his usual superb stupefying, thrilling, spectacular, astonishing, stunning, breathtaking, awesome, heart stirring performance back on the concert stage.
Nonetheless, I still wanna hear your opinion for some mental preparation.

Good Luck to everyone who's taking the Personnel Management paper tmr with me in that room = )

2005-12-10T20:04:00.000-08:00

Felt a lil comfort and relief after reading Jeraldine's blog. I thought I was being emotionally weak and weird to be affected by this incident, didn't felt like talking to most and just not in the mood for many things. Glad to know I'm not alone.

2005-12-07T22:52:00.000-08:00

I guess I owed u an apology, Marie. Sorry for what happened.
Maybe everyone have their limits, and I didn't know mine. Really sorry to have frightened you. You chose the wrong time to talk to me, but I did told u to go away, didn't I?
Anyway yeah bu hao yi si, I promise it won't happen again = )

2005-12-07T12:09:00.000-08:00

Gerard Manley Hopkins (1844-89)

Spring and Fall

to a young child

MARGARET, are you grieving
Over Goldengrove unleaving?
Leaves, like the things of man, you
With your fresh thoughts care for, can you?
Ah! as the heart grows older
It will come to such sights colder
By and by, nor spare a sigh
Though worlds of wanwood leafmeal lie;
And yet you will weep and know why.
Now no matter, child, the name:
Sorrow's springs are the same.
Nor mouth had, no nor mind, expressed
What heart heard of, ghost guessed:
It is the blight man was born for,
It is Margaret you mourn for.
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thanks Sophie.

2005-12-06T02:19:00.000-08:00

"For certain is death for the born
And certain is birth for the dead;
Therefore over the inevitable
Thou shouldst not grieve."
- Bhagavad gita

I'm beginning to ponder much about Life. growing agnostical and skeptical towards many theories I have previously hold dear to. I come to realise its a cycle philosophically beyond the mortal limits of comprehension. I really can't understand.

She was the utmost generous and self-less. Gave her best to everyone.
Indeed she touched the life of us all. and I'm grateful.

2005-12-01T00:12:00.000-08:00

met up with Allen and his gf today. both are actually Singaporean in nationality but have spent most of their life in Brisbane. His gf's younger then me by 2 years and she's probably enterin Uni next year and drives her OWN yah as in very OWN PERSONAL car in Australia. DAMN!! you know how lag we are behind here. Allen's getting his degree next year, just about time I get conscripted. Arggghhh!!!

2005-11-29T23:08:00.000-08:00

http://www.wildsingapore.com/sos/media/040406-1.htm

read this article entitled: Southern Shore of Singapore

I totally agree with what this guy said, Prithpal Singh vice president of Hotel Properties. Very very make sense. It's something about the building of a casino in Singapore. We should have learn something from our M'sia forefather Ah Tong (Lim Goh Tong: the rich old man who owns Genting Highland and Star Cruises worth 1.9 billion, U.S not Ringgit). read it if u're interested about the casino in Singapore.

If the casino is targeted for high rollers, then why should it be funded by tax-payers money!!?? and we start this nonsensical national debate on the morality of building a casino instead of getting private entrepreneurs to envision where and how to build it and fund it.

2005-11-29T10:19:00.000-08:00

Ruu, check out Marie's blog.. she copy you use facial masks after reading your blog. *Phui!* I see her no up.

hahas, but I know you're not exactly in a mood now. take it easy lar, it's just a different mindset between the genders. We just express ourselves in a different manner, not that we don't care or aren't eager.

I can't believed I slept for a total of 12 hours and can still feel sleepy : ( really busy recently. and I'm going to be a tour guide on Thursday. Last year when I went to Brisbane, I stayed at my Uncle's friend's house. His son have came over to stay in SG for a month before heading back to Brisbane. I decided to bring him to Chinatown Mei Shi Jie to try some real Singapore pure Chinese Food on Thurs.

Still thinking hard what's worth visiting in SG? the last time he was here was 6 years ago and he only stayed for 3 days. Nght Safari? Mandai Zoo? Chinese Garden? Sentosa? you see, there's pretty nothing much in SG worth visiting. I really don't understand why would tourist travel half the world here to SG, for what???

2005-11-28T21:56:00.000-08:00

Thanks ah ruuuuuuuuuu for the ............. (shall not mention it here for some reasons, lol) she's really the most steady friend one can ever know. Help me collect/pass, pay for me first, still quote me the best price. This kind of friend, where to find?

and I got to know the most comforting thing today after being tortured for the weekend. No one at the bbq felt unwell after eating Zane's tang hoon. I was the only one who got sicked. After scanning through my face, Gerald declared: "I have a weak stomach". I agreed, and thought maybe I should do something about it. the BBQ's a signal.

Anyway a special congrats to So-Fat for entering R.J. Remarkable, come everybody give her a round of applause : )

2005-11-26T22:12:00.000-08:00

I'm down with fever for the 2nd time this month. I'm sorry but I have to do this: "FUCK". I hate fever. really drains you totally of all energy and willpower. managed to supress this evil thing after popping 2 pills of paracetemol earlier.

I swear it was Zane's half Tang Hoon half Bee Hoon($0.50 more expensive version). She didn't soak or washed it properly. and while starting fire, I remembered Elaine telling me this's her first time marinating(with a victory V on her hand).

a medical information for the idiots:
Fever is actually a positive reaction your body gives to fight diseases and infection. The temperature is raised to a degree where these harmful cells in your body cannot survive and according to some medical books, u're not supposed to supressed it but allow it to subside naturally.
and one can actually die if he loses the ability to react a fever in his body!!

2005-11-26T14:13:00.000-08:00

This entry is dedicated to my buddy Ruru.

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to RuRu, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! mUaCks, wishing u all the best in everything you put your heart in = )

2005-11-20T01:50:00.000-08:00

Amarantine <--(Love is Everlasting) Lyrics

You know when you gave your love away
It opens your heart, everything is new
And you know time will always find a way
To let your heart believe it's true

You know love is everything you say
A whisper, a word, promises you give
You feel it in the heartbeat of the day
You know this is the way love is

You know love may sometimes make you cry
So let the tears go, they will flow away
For you know love will always let you fly
How far a heart can fly away

You know when love's shining in your eyes
It may be the stars fallen from above
And you know love is with you when you rise
For night and day belong to love

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and I'm quite surprised some thought that Enya's a new singer. I have been listening to Enya's The Celts in cassette tapes since I was like 6 or 7. yeah she's that old.

2005-11-20T01:38:00.000-08:00

Listening to Enya's Amarantine. Nice song, you guys should listen to it.

Today's my brother XL birthday!! May all your wishes come true in this beautiful season : ) sweet 19th....

3 frienz's birthdays and costed me a cool ~200 bucks~ this month. I'm officially broke and I haven't paid my class fund. Anyone? and I still owe Yappy boi 100 dollars + another 10. I'm running a serious deficit here. I'm afraid I would be like this when I'm out working in future. spend to my every last single cent. That's why I hope I can find a wife who's good in accounts and managing money, I'll just focus on earning and earning and earning as much as I can every month and she'll save it all up for me and keep a tab on how much I spend. Good deal ar?

recently been kinda addicted to watching "Friends". It's a real great show. Spanning over 10 years in 10 seasons, the finale won a viewership of 51.1 million audience in America alone. 51.1 million, can you believe it? It's a drama that revolves around 5 friends who live in 2 apartments facing each other and they hang around each other places or the cafe across the streets to talk about relationship, sex, work and life in general. but its never boring and totally hilarious every episode.

it's my "always, sure" watch video on the plane everytime I travel. Sure thing. I hate the flights, long or short. Just feel so restless and physically and mentally constrained but "Friends" and "That 70's Show" never fail to lighten up my mood and make time past faster.

Andy and I watched 5 episodes straight till it was too late and we had to stop. Ru was so upset and yelled a loud "Wah Lau" when I stopped the dvd player to get her to go to class before she's late for her lecture. Now you know how addictive it can be. Don't say I didn't warn.

2005-11-18T22:20:00.000-08:00

Rules of the game:

1. Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.

2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

5 weird/random stuff about me ((:

So the list goes as follows:

1. I can't stand talking to ppl while they're not looking at me in the eyes and especially they're digging the bag or sms-ing. the bag part irritates me the most!!

2. I'm scared and will refrain from eating Indian Cuisine. their food just taste... erm.. weird?? Okay I'm weird.

3. I hate having those really long hearty conversation on the telephone. I mean how big is Singapore? Can't we meet up I mean if u really haf a big problem to solve. If it's not impt then its not urgent then can't we discuss it the next time we meet? Telephone is a tool of communication not a line of connection, bear that in mind.

4. I can go to the movies like 4 - 6 times in a month. I love the movies : ))

5. I'm willing to spend up to 200 dollars for a concert ticket but will and WILL never spend more then 3 dollars for a drink at so called "high place" places like starbucks or coffebean. I think its crazy. and I love the non-aircon hawker centre!!

okay now the time for choosing:

1. Ashley
2. Eden
3. Leroy
4. Ru Hui
5. Adelene

but I'm too lazy to tag you guys, can you all just do it yourself, thanks ar : ))

2005-11-17T02:19:00.000-08:00

I'm Sorry Ade, yeah glad you understanded me but the outcome of the debate was kinda predictable the moment it started when the first speaker spoke. and thanks for your lil sweet flashbacks, brought back memories during those eternal long breaks in Physics. make it up to u for another meal some tym soon, alright? i'm sincerly apologetic.

ah XiE YUN represented the School of Business in a debate against School of Maritime Academy. Okay the SB debate team really ripped the shit out of those 3 ppl who represented my school, and seriously weak man, I have never seen this 3 guys before and I've really no idea how the fuck they got selected for this? Who's in charge of debating?? any idea, zhenling? I mean come'on lar we got to have ppl better then that? just send shrivanee (can't spell her name) that girl from the other class, or Chun Mun.

The topic of the debate: is media the main source of causing social problems in our society today?

the SB won only coz their opponent was too weak, and anyway the debate was nothing big deal after all. the Proposition (SMA) didn't established their grounds and stand for their points while the Opposition didn't bite those already weak points down and started detracting from the main topic by bringing in some other unrelated points.

and couldn't stand the smug look on those cocky business shit. put me up on the opposition and I will bite them down alive easily. you know I sort of notice a kind of thing, the ppl from Biz Sch always thinks that they're like so much better then ppl from other sch and always carry a kind of smug look and a look-down attitude on others. while the ppl from SMA are always like, how to say, they can't carry themselves well, as in verbally, which is why we always lose out in an intellectual debate with the biz ppl, then they start getting agitated and look as if they wanna go over and punch the girl from Biz Sch, which makes the biz sch ppl look down further on the SMA ppl. jus an observation from the ppl in that debate thingy.

hope the biz sch lose in the next debate with the other school. Smug Freaks.
the only reason u guys won is coz I wasn't there.

2005-11-15T00:48:00.000-08:00

HeY Ash!! what happen to your tag board??

I went to watch "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" at Bishan too this evening after school. were you at Bishan?

Freaking scary movie. but the storyline's good. for more details of the actual story check out Ash's blog at the link below. hahahas. I seem to be leaching a lot of stuff from there but this was coincidence alright?

the part when the 6 demons shouted out the name out of Emily really freaked me out. I read somewhere that Adolf Hitler was one of the demon in the real case. Cool!!
btw anyone have any idea who's the other 5? I remembered the name of Judas and Legion. but I thought they were some ancient figures in some Greek tales, and Judas was something the Jewish and respectable, like their hero or something?

tell me more, okay? If anyone knows the story about the 5 demon. so interesting!!
must really brush up on my history on ancient western culture. Hey! but at least my chinese one is good okay? ask me anything from Ne Zha to Yue Fei I can tell you the whole story.

finally watched the movie I wanted to watch this weekend, borrowed the dvd from the school library, and saw someone I've been wishing and longing to see. I caught her staring at me too!! : ))) come'on give me a close encounter, can? Please. Always too far yet too near. Too far to strike a conversation but too near to notice her walk away and spoils my whole day.

Anyway yeah that movie I was talking about is Stephen Spielberg's Minority Report. Tom Cruise is ever fantastic and the storyline is one of the best I have ever seen. I like this statement in the movie:

"The fact that you prevented it from happening doesn't change the fact that it WAS going to happen." - Tom Cruise.

quite true ar, don't you think so? it kept me pondering for quite some time.

Ash if you know the story about who is the other 5 demons, elaborate for me okay?

reading the 3rd series of "A-Channel" by Zhang Xiao Xian. borrowed from Annie, very nice story and phrases.

2005-11-12T09:51:00.000-08:00

From Ash's... you wouldn't mind ritex? nah I know you wouldn't.

Okay below is actually a fun test we took during Psychology. So here to share it with you well it may be accurate, may be not. Write down the answer that comes to your mind immediately. Subsequent thinking of the answer makes ur analysis inaccurate.

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with? Name the person.

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal? Do you ignore the animal or get near it?

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe your dreamhouse. Is it a huge/small?

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?

6. You enter the house. You walk to the dining area and see the dining room table. Describe what you see on AND around the table.

7. You exit the house through the back door. Lying in the grass is a cup. What material is the cup made of?

8. What do you do with the cup? Do you pick it up or leave it there?

9. You walk to the edge of the property, where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What type of body of water is it? Is it a puddle of water, a lake, a river or as big as Ocean?

10. How will you cross the water?(scroll down for answers)
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Analysis
1. The person who you are walking with is the most important person in your life

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems. (Passive/aggressive)

4. The size of your dream house is representative of the size of your ambition to resolve your problems

5. No fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a vclose personality. You'd prefer people not to drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did not include food, people or flowers, then you are generally unhappy

7. The durability of the material with which the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship with the person named in number 1. For example, Styrofoam, plastice and paper are all disposable, metal and plastic are durable.

8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude towards the person in number 1.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.

10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life.

You see. Psychology rocks.

2005-11-12T00:10:00.000-08:00

Time really crawls. I feel as if I have written that previous entry damn freaking long ago.

Anyway someone described my blog and which indirectly refers to my life as incredibly, unbeliveably boring. As if her life of playing some computer games of possesive and violent nature, Maple Story and Sims, which already goes to show her personality, hanging 24/7 ard BF'S hse and indulging in alcohol at clubs is extremely interesting!!?? phui!!

As a response and protest to that irresponsible comment I have decided not to blog for a week. I think I know why some find my blog or life to be boring, coz I don't have any particular girl in my life which is why I have no relationship stuff to talk about and which in turn turns out to be "boring" in their perspective and thus the brand name: "Loser". But screw you, "relationship" does not correlate or amount to "interesting", Okay? Instead I find the routine in the life of people whose in a relationship to be extremely uninteresting and meaningless. I would NEVER EVER let my life be dependent on another and allow my social circle to be capped by the other. That is a loser's way of leading his or her life.

So this week I will invest and devote all my time and energy to finishing up my report on "Maritime Terrorism". and maybe watching "Friends".

Last thing, I realised many linked their blog up with that celebrity blogger, or so they call her, Xiaxue. After hearing and seeing so much about her on tv, newspaper and magazine, I clicked on the link earlier and read a few of her articles and thought, WHAT'S THE FREAKING BIG DEAL? Guess the big deal about her is probably just because there is a serious serious lack of really creative and good young writer, online or otherwise here. I'm sure if she's in H.K or Taiwan, no one will ever notice her. Reading some blogs of my overseas friends in Taiwan, the average 17 yr old 6th grader blogger in Taiwan can write many times better then her, of coz in Chinese, but I mean the literature skills and story telling part. H.K have produce so many and so many world class aclaimed writers, the 4 Talented Scholar,Jin Yong, Ni Kuang, Zhang Xiao Xian just to name a few. and after so many years we only have our one Catherine Lim here.

Nah, I just don't think she's really such a big deal.
so this would be my last entry for the week, till then, adios amigos alta avista.

2005-11-10T02:21:00.000-08:00

I hate her! really, no joke. is it my problem or others. why no one can seem to be able to be punctual and stick to the time fixed.
I won't disclose this person name here after realising she's been reading this "boring", as she exclaims, blog. mine, Justin Ho the loser's boring blog.
We arrange to meet 10pm at the MRT station, after my various experience with this untrustworthy person, I was set to go at 945pm but I decided to ring her before stepping out. So she crapped some reason and said she needed some more time. I gave in and waited and waited and waited and waited..... and a neverending waited. Now at 1045, after one hour I couldn't exercise any more of my usual restrain and decided to phone her again. the conversation were as below:

Justin: Pls turn to your right and look out of the window, the sun's rising soon.

"hehe, ehx actually hor the show now on tv quite nice lehx, can I watch finish first then meet you?"

I don't want to go on further and describe what I felt like telling her, all the graphic comment in the beautiful expressive different dialects and languages I could possibly come out with. I swear to you it was at least 5 sentences and above, continuous. I swear to you, people close to me know how much I could swear in a swear, I swear. especially playing Monopoly, when I strike the plot of land Eden owns and is nicely planted with hotel and he give me that grin.

I admire the olden days when people were deprived of sophiscated gadget and new age technology such as Handphones equipped with SMS. People stick to their words. and words means words.

Hero 1: Shi ba Nian Hou, Yuan Qiu Chun, Zhi Shi Jian, Bu Jian Bu Shan.
(english translation: Eighteen Years from now, Yuan Qiu Village, Eight Oclock see, No see No go.)

and people really appear as promised.

Anyway just another piece of news to offer. The government has annouced that they intend to implement every household who employs a maid are mandated to give the maid at least a day off, regardless, yes regardless of any issue. One day off means one day off. No offer of monetary supplement or whatsoever shit you could fabricate. One Day means One fucking day for the maid to go out of the house and take a break, mentally or physically. This means my theory's right, you see! even the government is telling you so. So stop arguing with me. They are domestic worker not slave. They are human being just like you and me. Material desires, social circle, emotional needs everything just like me and you.

Humans can never be suppressed and kept. and the worst thing you can ever do is to use money to buy someone's else freedom. It's degrading and inhumane. Understand the law of deprivation, you bitch, take something from someone and he'll get more eager to have it back then before, and the last thing you want him is to be angry, especially if he's someone hanging round the clock in your house handling your most personal stuff. Just look at what is happenin in Paris now, for christ sake, the kids have been suppressed, contained and pushed around for decades and now they are unleashing their fury, burning the streets for weeks. and believe me, it will happen anywhere. If the French government don't change their policy quick, the fire of fury's gonna spread throughout the entire Europe.

2005-11-09T01:10:00.000-08:00

Got this pic from my Dai Lou Wayne's blog. didn't had this picture. guessed was using his camera. this was taken in the turbojet coming back to H.K from Macau after our casino trip. hahahahas looking at this pic reminds me of the joke on the boat. hahahahas really couldn't stop laughing when I thought about the scene there. but due to some reason I can't disclose what the joke is about. hahahahas. this secret shall remain between me and Yap.

2005-11-07T19:11:00.000-08:00

I want to watch this movie!!
Hei She Hui. Election.

but can't find it in the websites of local cinemas lehx. let me know if any of you guys know when it's screening. damn excited to watch. saw the preview in H.K, looks kinda cool.

2005-11-07T18:14:00.000-08:00

got really too hungry on Friday nitex that I couldn't help myself. Swallowed one raw egg. this raw egg gave me 4 days of Flu and 3 days of Fever. Finally on Sat afternoon, after burning for 2 nitex I gave up, went to the Mount Alvernia hospital A&E, choked up a medical bill of $77.95. Haizz.. almost committed sucide when I saw the receipt. wanted to tell the nurse: "Why not just give me an acid injection and let me die rather then paying that $77.95". What an expensive egg. I was really damn reluctant to go to the hospital, could have spend the money on so much better more useful stuff, like cigarettes : (

anyway thanks to all who msged me a "take care" and "get well soon".
May God Bless u'all too. You'all concern was a comfort to me at times like these.

2005-11-04T21:36:00.000-08:00

Damn'it! I'm like so freaking bored lor.... Arrggghhh!!! I miss H.K, really : (

earlier went to had dinner with Gerald (<-- she owes me an abalone treat at Ah Yat Bao Yu)at Orchard. I found a job with her. She will take over her father's company once she gets her degree. Calculating time I should be de-conscripted(<- is there such a word? hahas, who cares, you get what I mean)by then. So she have decided to appoint me as her personal secretary. Basically my job scope involves sitting at a desk outside her office, transfer and filter calls for her, da-pao lunch and dinner or whenever she feels like eating, deliver documents for her perusal, carry her files and coat for her when she goes for meeting, stand behind and pose an idiotic stupid face but provide her with suggestions and offer answers during the discussion whenever required. That's it. And I expect my salary to be erm.. at least 5 digit?

Where else would u find a better job?

Last nitex had dinner with Cheryl, Jia Ling and Jia Hui at Yishun's Northpoint. Didn't realise they had such a wide range of food there. not bad, can go back there and eat soon. So sick and tired of food courts which basically sells almost the same stuff as the very other food court on the other side of our tiny cute island. and you don't want to eat food court, so you go to the hawker centre and that's it let's say if you don't fancy fast food. Okay talk about affordable restaurants for frequent patronage, Sushi Tae, Pasta Mania, Cafe Cartel, Billy Bombers, Jack's Place, Crystal Jade, etc... not to mention the food is nothing fantastic but that's about it. The entire Singapore. of course there are plenty more of unique and nice places to fine dine but I mean AFFORDABLE FOR FREQUENT PATRONAGE ,or at least to my standard and is well located enough for convenience sake. Go down to any cafe in H.K, take the one I went in Jordan, the simple menu, at least 40 over different MAIN COURSE for your selection. I joke you not, 40 over. and those is considered as low class and extremely common cafe scattered all over the city. don't talk about restuarants. On any streets in Mongkok, you will be fascinated by the so many and so many continuous neon light signboards for unique eatery outlets. It's affordable, at least to my standard, lucky get a window seat with a nice view of the bustling street below, and best part? you get to smoke in the air-conditioned comfort of your seat right there inside. or is it I don't explore in Singapore? or I'm too poor to eat nice restaurants here? hahahas, I don't know. But I just love H.K.

Cheryl just came back from K.L and bought me a handphone chain with my name engraved inside the bead with a "Tian Tian Kai Xing" behind. So Sweet = ))!!
Okay lar was nothing big deal, a chain, but I always desired for someone to give me that!!!!! You know how much I wish for one??? you know?? and I find it degrading and pointless to buy one for yourself but never and NEVER no one gave one to me before!!! The reason I got after a small survey done was most thought I would consider that as childish that's why I wouldn't like and deserved one. Damn'it!!

Okay lar I'm being childish but I'm a happy man with the chain now = ))))

2005-11-02T22:26:00.000-08:00

School began its first day for me today. Nothing special to update but just feel like typing fast the keyboard.... hahahas.....when I stepped into the class this morning I suddenly realise this would be my last semester in this not-say-i-very-like school but I mean human develop feelings toward something, even if it's just a building after facing it over the years, ritex?

Flunk my medical checkup last Monday, got the extremely undesired and unwanted PES B = ((( I got PES A for all my other stations only till the ECG heart test. I contracted something termed the "Sinus Defect" that's causing my heartbeat to be irregular. Don't ask me what's that, I have no idea either, only knowing that it's something common among heavy smokers. To hell with it, screw them. Pes B then Pes B. so? big deal?

hope I score well for that IQ test. and OSY lied to me, he told me it would take less then 15 minutes but the actual shit was close to 1 n half hours. I then later realised he didn't bothered to answer the questions, just kept slamming his finger on the keyboard..."next" "next" "next" "next". that's why he took only 15 minutes -_-'''

By the way, the Singapore Airforce gave an A-4 Skyhawk to SP as a gift which is now displayed somewhere at the Biz block. Andy told me actually he noticed them constructing a shed up the slope few months back and was looking forward to the completion of that project then he have a new cooling study area or slack place with a nice view. Now they put one aeroplane inside there -_-'''

2005-10-31T00:07:00.000-08:00

This was done specially for me from A.d.e. Thankx Girl = )

2005-10-28T12:03:00.000-07:00

Last nitex Leroy and Eden brought the Andy Lau - Tong Meng Qi Yuan vcd over to my place to watch. though I've already watched it in H.K I really didn't mind watching it again. Nice movie. I like all the actors in the movie. Wong Yat Wah, Ying Cai-er, Lam Kah Tong, and of course Andy Lau. Anyway Leroy quited his job at ChinaBlack which is why he's so free and uncommitted recently.

The 2 stupid boys wanted to act some sat go Mrs Koh house win some money from Mahjong in the end after few hours when we meet for supper, both have to withdraw money again, lose 30++.

walking towards the busstop, met OSY there who was waitin for bus. so in the end the 4 of us went to buy chocs and sat at the void-deck talking cock.

Leroy asked me one stupid question.

(walking up the overhead bridge)

Leroy: ehx you say OSY put his angkong put until so down, next time will regret or not?

Justin: Aiyah he happy can liao lar, don't bother.

Leroy: yah lor but siao one lehx (very crumpled up face) he like so proud of it (another even more crumpled up face)!!!

I was thinking: IF HE NOT PROUD OF IT, HE WON'T GO PUT RITEX? IF HE GO PUT OF COZ HE PROUD OF IT -_-'''

I WANT TO WATCH ANDY LAU - SAY AGAIN YOU LOVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HEelLLO anyone? ReLeAsED YTD iN ciNEMaS iSlAnDwIdE I want watch i want watch i want watch

We really grew up with Andy Lau and Stephen Chow movies, sort of have a special feeling even watching his movies now, that bond. but I guess the younger generation maybe few years younger or the more Ang Moh inclined batch of us 86 won't give a heck anymore. who is Andy Lau? one old man from HK that is abit yandao.

I still remember watching he act Yang Guo in the TVB 1988 "Return of the Condor Heroes".. *wipe tears*... he that time still very fat..

2005-10-27T03:18:00.000-07:00

Finally managed to get the English translation for the "Duel of the Fates". Andy, we were both wrong, it wasn't Greek nor Romanic, it's Sanskrit. adapted from the "Battle of the Trees". and at the side there is the English translation, cool huh?

I read through the original piece. basically talks about the eternal moral battle between the good and the evil. The demon standing infront of you, may look ferocious and menacing, but the real battle begins in your mind being able to overcome that fear surfacing within your inner-self, that even more deadly evil.

2005-10-26T02:51:00.000-07:00

was earlier discussing with Andy earlier about where we hope to get posted once we get into Army. kinda fast ritex? hahas, so fast planning already. but I guess he'll have much bigger pressure from his parents coz his brother was from OCS(Officer Cadet School), 2nd Lieutenant.

I'm going for my medical checkup next Monday. GOD PLEASE!! Help me. get me a PES A Combat Fit. or else I will be really really really freaking disappointed. DON'T TALK TO ME FOR A WEEK IF I GET A PES B. I'll just slack through my entire 2 years. let me be a storeman or clerk, I don't mind. Give me a A or C, no B pleaseee... I beg you...

Give us both an A!! then we'll go to OCS together!!
but talk only lar. let's just see what comes out on Monday.

And Eden, enough with your gay shit, bastard. Don't let me get hold of something against you I swear I kao bei you for the rest of my life. you BASTARD!!
now I can't go swimming, asshole!!!

*praying hard*: A or C, no B!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-23T13:06:00.000-07:00

Something happened few days ago. I guess I don't wanna be the news broadcaster here so I'm not going to say it. But all the ppl who should know about it, have known about it. I'm not in an absolute good position to be the wise guy and make any comment but I guess we'all wish well and hope everything clears up soon. Time though intangible but is of something extremely invaluable and it does prove a hell lots of stuff.

The only thing I can do now is offer you guys my blessings and hope I will see what I hope to see on my Birthday Xmas gathering. yeah and that includes my present = )

Life is short, cherish past memories and put your heart and soul to create new ones.

2005-10-19T17:32:00.000-07:00

2005-10-19T14:13:00.000-07:00

The tribute for the newborn love, for they are so resplendent and substantial. The only thing that everyones' chasing, can be a sorrowful ending. So wild and proud, we have it all. hand in hand, we see the realistic loam. Realising whats right and wrong. Deciding to take a breathe away. Let the nature takes it course.

- Grandeur Liturgist Ashley 20/10/05 2.09p.m

2005-10-19T05:01:00.000-07:00

The best medicine to illness is really the laughter from friends.

Leroy contracted Dengue fever from a freaking god-damn mosquito bite when he was in K.L last week, I really hate the mosq, which laid my once extremely strong friend 6 days down on the bed. I was really kinda shocked when I visited him yesterday. Saw him sitting on the bed, listlessly looking at the window outside. Red spots emerging all over his face and he felt feverish. Poor thing. Then I saw Eden's blog earlier saying Leroy complained 6 days no one visited him until he called me yesterday before I went. Felt kinda bad, but at least I went yesterday and I really didn't know it was so serious till I saw him. He sounded relatively normal on the phone. but could see he did really cheered up when me and Eden came and accompanied him for the afternoon, bought 2 vcds and watched. Guys, pls lar, just play less few hours Mahjong and visit our friend, okay??? Rene yeah I'm talking about you, don't gay siao and I know you're reading this. it's only a 15 minutes drive from your place.

Bless you Leroy, hope you recover soon.

went to watch this total dumb and senseless but supremely hilarious movie: Deuce Bigalow. The part when that woman with a hole in her neck squirted out sperm and flied to the guy's bowl, I turned and saw Adelene almost to tears. hahahas, that part was really funny.

after the movie, was Mahjong Time with my kakis: Andy, Eden, Rene and Bird. Lost like Fiak(<---I still have no idea where I got this word from, been spouting it the whole damn day, Fiak). still thought of winning some kopi money to supplement Andrew's Birthday Present.
anyway it's Mr Yap's birthday this Saturday, so an early wishing from me:

HUPPY BIRTHDAY DAY YAPPIE!!!

merchant court buffet is on you, I don't care = )))

2005-10-16T22:07:00.000-07:00

2005-10-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

Damn I was browsing thru earlier when I pounced upon this 2 collectible items

Andy Lau T-Shirt and Ring.

Am so tempted to buy, delivery will commences tmr. Fark why didn't I see this before I went H.K then I could have just went directly to the office and collect, save on air mail charges.

anyway I believe it's only on for the "再所一次我愛你" movie promotion period. gotta make up whether to buy soon.

The ring's going for H.K120: SNG 26++
The shirt's going for H.K80: SNG 17++

delivery charges are less then 10.

SHOULD I??? Give me some comments, guys.

2005-10-16T21:50:00.000-07:00

MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT FOR MYSELF. HAHAHAHAS. CITIZEN XC STYLE. Nice?

2005-10-13T17:35:00.000-07:00

2005-10-13T17:26:00.000-07:00

剛剛在 MSN 和 Candy 午後閑談時才赫然發現原來她也是香港人. 你說是巧合? 我說是緣分. 廣東人!! 大家站起來!! = )) 多了一個可以講廣東話,"吹水"(廣東話閑談的意思)的朋友. 她老爸是馬來西亞人,祖父母是上海人,老媽是香港人. 夠措中複雜了吧? 簡單一句講解:雜種. 哈哈哈哈. 千萬別給她看到這一句.

spend the afternoon watching "The Practice" Episode 3: Cause of Action.

which is also like one of the most exciting episode and I actually missed it previously till today. How could I?? Alan Shore got called to the bar and was interrogated by 3 panel Judges on the possibility of a suspension of his legal license. guess who came to save him? Eugene Young, yeah the senior associate partner of that firm that hates Alan Shore to the bones for his flippancy. They almost got into several fight in various occasion. But I guess he did the right thing this time.

Anyway just listen to this story in this episode and you'll understand why I love this legal drama.

This man Stanley was arrested for the murder of his pregnant wife. Elleanor, another defence attorney in the firm represented and defended him in the court. The intensity of the flare on this case was fanned by the continuous media report over the town. Jury's biased to concluding he's the murderer even before the trial commences. Stanley deviously formulated a plan to get him out of jail. He got his 10 year old daughter to admit she poisoned her mother, misleading everyone even his own attorney Elleanor. Elleanor questioned the little girl and confirmed what she was saying is the truth and not in any bid to protect her father. Using this piece of information, she filed for a mistrial to the Judge, got Stanley acquitted and his daughter arrested and placed in custody for further trial. Then now Stanley confessed to Elleanor that he was indeed the murderer of his pregnant wife. The crux is now he will testify in the court for his daughter and provide favorable testimony but he will never be arrested again because of a legal technicality termed "Double Jeopardy", which simply means out of civil rights a person can never be prosecuted twice or more for the same crime he was tried. Bastard!!

So now you're Elleanor, you've got hold of the truth and saw light of the entire plan, you were the one who filed for a mistrial, and privilege forbids you from revealing any information provided by the client. What do you do? and that 10 year old daughter's gonna remain there in jail for the rest of her life to pay for a crime her father committed. unless she risks giving up her career as a lawyer and use that confession to prove that mistrial was a resultant from fraud, double jeopardy is detached. then that bastard can be arrested and his daughter be released.

She got very depressed and remorseful, and went to find her old friend Alan Shore for a drink. she got drunk and told him everything. Alan Shore knew he need to do something to help his friend and the little girl. He went down to the jail and tricked the little girl into giving a testimony which he then handed over that testimony to the District Attorney at the Justice Department. The D.A gave him a "what the fuck look"??

D.A: I will file for a mistrial but I will submit this piece of testimony you've just gave me to the bar and you may be suspended. I'm sure you know what you're doing, don't you?

Alan Shore: I've always wanted to farm for apples. The cripsy ones : )

so that Stanley was arrested (but eventually acquitted, anyway that's in another episode), Alan Shore was called to the bar infront of 3 panel judges for integorration to decide if he was to be suspended for revealing that privileged information. He didn't really defend himself and was like mentally prepared to give up the license when almost all was lost, Eugene Young stepped in to represent him. Damn zai, you see the way Eugene defended him.

Judge Warren: You should've known that privilege is a fundamental notion that holds true to the system and all defence attorneys and in breaching that.....

Eugene: Fundamental!! Fundamental in A SYSTEM where fraud is committed and an innocent 10 year old girl is waiting in custody for a trial, a crime she did not commit?? A SYSTEM where 10,000 wrongful convictions are ruled every year in this country where we very stand now. the system is devastated, the system is wrong. and what Alan Shore did was right. With the most obscure exception in the legal technical boundaries what he did was morally JUST. JUST in a courage many wouldn't have undertaken. and I hope you would rule in a moral capacity, what is right.

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this is all I could remember, the actual cross examination was much much much longer. I pity the scriptwriter and James Spader(Alan Shore). wonder how they can memorise the script. and I bet the script is like at least 10 pages long for every episode.

2005-10-13T01:52:00.000-07:00

Call me cheena, I don't care. Finally can type Chinese. 一個字:爽.

盼了許久,終可如願以償.
在此感謝我的大哥Wayne風塵僕僕,山長水遠過來pass我要的SP2.
小第我深感歉意,愧疚於心.

最近從天而降了兩張免費電影票,看了成龍英皇集團的製作:神話.
確實值得一看,只是覺得電腦映畫效果似乎不夠完整,缺乏立體感,真實遺憾.
但故事方面就挺突出的,講述春秋七雄爭霸的時代,秦國猛將蒙毅的一段民間神話.
說秦王曾運用宇宙中的隕石建造一座盤旋在天空中的皇陵(皇帝駕崩之後,所收藏屍體的地方),裡頭就居住著等待蒙毅歸來的公主.
夠別出新才了吧?
我好像曾經讀過一本春秋史書裡頭有記載過蒙毅這個人物,仲覺得這個名字好熟悉.

switch back to Channel 5. haven't been watching the television for quite some time. flipping thru the papers I realised there was "Boston Legal" tonitex and made an effort to crawl from my room to the living room to switch on the television. Damn'it they've changed to a new season. Anyway during the case there was this closing statement that I found rather enthralling and intriguing:

[This man comes from a society that treats women as commodities. A nation that burns bad wives. In America we don't do that. We don't condone honor killings. We don't consider any murder to be honorable. You all know what he did. Come back with a verdict which reminds him what country he is in now.]

Whoever's the scriptwriter, he's a brilliant fellow. A hit on the nail.

Basically my life recently's a blank sheet, nothing worth updating. I can just die at home w/o anyone realising for, say, one month? hope Andy or Osyie will happen to pass by and ring a doorbell.

嗨!!! 涼..風有信,秋..月無邊,怪我思嬌的情緒,好比度日如年...........

2005-10-07T01:21:00.000-07:00

love this new song lyrics written by Andy Lau: 美人痛

梅龍鎮上綣起一齣相思夢
鳳姐妄攀龍　徒遭情戲弄
范蠡狠心千里將愛送

深深的情可以讓地搖天動
人心太善忘　也難免最後一場空
淡淡的愛可以無盡的沉重
情不情願也沒有用

天賜良緣委實難自控
嘆君甘入甕　長與痛相擁
莫管今生是龍還是鳳
情到濃時你我一樣同

don't u think it's like a poem? really nicely written.

2005-10-01T12:45:00.000-07:00

2005-10-01T12:30:00.000-07:00

2005-10-01T12:05:00.000-07:00

above are the pics taken in Macau. the golden piece of shit is the famous "Sands" casino. not a bad place to visit. Macau was colonised by the Portugese way long back ago which is why their streets have a kind of old European feel, the sliding up streets with Chinese signboards and the smell of portugese egg tarts. nice mixture of western and eastern culture.
and the girls are wooh-hoo... cannot take it...

when we came out of the harbour walking towards the famous largo do senado fountain, there was this 2 Americans walking infront of us disturbing the Macau local trishaw rider. they were like shouting at each other across the road. we were really laughing our ass off behind. anyway this fountain is where they filmed the "Young and Dangerous" part 2. remember the part when Jordan Chan and Ekin Cheng whistle then few hundred Hung Hing ppl came out and surround the Taiwanese San Lian Bang.

somewhere below there is a picture of Andrew's back down one street. that is Central SOHO where they film Wu Jian Dao the part when Tony Leung walks down the street using the phone talking to Kelly Chan in the part3. I saw many many places where they filmed the movie.

2005-10-01T04:46:00.000-07:00

as mentioned earlier, the first 4 days we stayed at Wayne's dad place which you can see below in the pics. it's 3 storey plus a rooftop. the 1st floor is common area where we sit there and dine, watch tv, smoke, drink, chit chat. the 2nd floor is Wayne's dad area which is where we slept. 3rd floor is Uncle Randy and his wife place, took a pic wif him at the steamboat using Andrew's cam, will post it here soon. the rooftop is basically a place where u wash ur clothes, hang, do some exercise, breathe some fresh air. the place is located in New Territories, Yuen Long, Pat Heung, Yuen Gong Village, Hung Hum Garden. long ar the name.. haha.. H.K address are all like that. it's kinda laid back in the mountain region not like in Kowloon City area where it's so noisy and smoky and so hectic. here is the village area, morning u wake up open the window u will see farmers planting seeds, raising chickens and stuff like that. at nitex cos of the mountains the wind's real real chilly. but it's kinda cool place to smoke. every nitex after shopping we will bring some drinks up and stand there discuss about what good deals we made earlier during shopping. it's a really really nice place. really miss it. we went for some night cycling around Pat Heung as seen in the first few pics we took. very deserted, quite dangerous at nitex to wander alone.

will post those taken during the last 4 days in Kowloon City Area and in Macau soon. gotta catch some sleep now, jus arrived in Singapore earlier at 1am. met up wif Osyie to pass him his prezzie. on the way home felt the streets and roads to be so quiet compared to those in H.K at this time. nevermind. i think i really go and catch some sleep. tmr gonna start my first day of working.

posted some other photos in friendster. can take a glimpse over dere too.

2005-10-01T04:38:00.000-07:00

2005-10-01T04:14:00.000-07:00

below is all the pics of some food I took.
the food is honestly superb, but you must know how to order. don't order those ordinary stuff, then it sucks balls. let the expert intro some good stuff,

the dim sum at "DOU HEUNG" is nice, and the restaurant's kinda famous so they have branches all over H.K. as seen in one of the photo below. i was trying to take a pic of our appetizer, that idiotic Andrew was trying to steal some to eat first. lucky my chopstick fast enough to catch him.

if u really want to try the local H.K food u hafta go to the Cha Chan Teng to eat. But u hafta speak canto coz the ppl working dere are considered the lower class of the society who can't understand mandarin and English. so far I still find those Cha Chan Teng at the Central's the best. order Chan Tan Meen(egg with luncheon meat noodle), Po Lo Pao(pineapple bun), Wanton Mee, Nao Nam Meen(beef brisket noodle), Fan Cheung(pork chang fen), drinks u must try the Leng Fei(coffee with lemon) or the Yuen Yeung(coffee+tea).. all these are my super favourites.which is why I go down the cha chan teng almost everyday.

but if u don't like the smoky noisy local environment and want something a little more high class u can most probably go down Mongkok where they have all these little little restaurants at the 2nd floors. nice view if u're sitting beside the window, get to see the busy streets below. we tried the Spagetthi House the nitex Jasmine arrived, I thought it was quite alright, but jasmine didn't like it. the next day we went to Tai Koo Ruby for lunch. the set meal's real worth it. but only during lunch time. evening dinner's much more expensive. we tried one restaurant at Harbour City with Yonna, can't remember the name, but it sucks balls. don't eat those restaurants in the Shopping centre. roadside's still the best.

2005-10-01T04:03:00.000-07:00

2005-09-30T19:02:00.000-07:00

Alas! my holiday's over.

last few days was really fun. we went took the turbo jet to Macau's casino and I won a hundred bucks with the dice game : )))I thought HK gals were cute, wait till u see those Macau girls in the casino!!! the steamboat at Yuen Long was really really nice. I was so tempted to take a bus down to Tung Gun across Macau into GuangDong. but nah I had to catch my flight.

Jasmine and her BF Ben arrived HK on Wednesday. so the whole bunch of us went out together. will post the pics we took soon here. all in 80 over. last nitex we went to watch this really touching movie by Andy Lau in Tai Koo. premiere last nitex in HK. most probably u losers in Singapore get to watch it dubbed in Mandarin dialouge few months later. Okay me and Jasmine cried, with Andrew denying(i saw his hands) and Ben falling asleep.

met up with Kimy's parents last nitex. her father praised me: "your cantonese is really good, boy!!" I replied: "of cos! i'm cantonese too : )". didn't manage to meet up with Uncle Wong. really felt sorry having him to wait for him in H.K because those 2 little bastards were having a real good time at the casino. we couldn't catch the ferry back.

Andrew boarded his plane earlier after dinner. Wayne went to buy his wife's cake leaving me alone here in the airport waiting for my flight at 8pm. now it's like..erm..7 plus, the sky outside's dark. time past faster with internet. it's the connectivity that entertains u. but still a little depressing. I also don't know why. kinda sucky feeling leaving H.K everytime. I really don't wish to return to Singapore.

I really really don't feel like coming back : ( haizzzzzz

2005-09-27T02:10:00.000-07:00

2005-09-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

today's mine 4th day in H.K

anyway as seen in the photo below yeah I did met up with Yonna even with that stupid typhoon signal 4 alert on. the wind and rain was real strong and irritating. She finished her studies and is now working as an Engineer in Quality Control of some fashion merchandising factory, Monday to Friday 9a.m to 10p.m. looking at her so weak already, I feel a "suan" "suan" kind of feeling. when we were standing beside the harbour, her big pink umbrella was like almost pulling her away and I had to grab it back so in the end we shared one.

crossed over the border at Lo Wu to China ShenZhen today. got stuck twice at the immigration when everyone passed smoothly. I always tio these kind of shit : ( hope don't get any problem on Wednesday when we go down Macau. anyway shopping at China is really sucky with all those cheena ppl around u and the toilet stinks. Still feel more shiok walking around in Mongkok or Tsim Sha Tsui. I think H.K gurls are kinda cute : ))) I DON'T WANT TO COME BACK SINGAPORE. love the food here!! don't think will get to eat the kind of food I eat here everyday. and the beer is freaking cheap, H.K 18 for one mug, One pack of Menthol Light at H.K$9. H.K$4.5=$1 SNG. you ownself calculate.

earlier'on had a quiet chat (with no jokes, kao-bei-ing, and laughter) kind of chat with Andrew. felt I suddenly know him so much better. saw the other side of him, the more sensible kind, and a kind of trust and faith between us.

the rain still going'on : ( guess won't be going out tonitex.

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don't u think she's such a cute and sweet girl?

2005-09-22T20:36:00.000-07:00

today's my first day in H.K.

we went straight for dim sum at Kwai Chung after departing from the airport. I tell u seriously, the dim sum was fantastic = )))) omg.. i took a few pics.. will post it soon for everyone to see how lucky I am.

afterwards we moved into wayne's dad place at a village in Yuen Long, which is super super deep inside. half and hour walk into that village. but its a nice quiet, unique environment with the mountains surrounding it. that place we r staying is a 3 storey apartment, wayne's dad and his business partners shared. the first level is common area, second is where we sleep, third is another of his partner and his wife sharing, then the rooftop. SO FUN!!!

while andrew and wayne lay unconcious on the bed, i went downstairs lookin for a place to smoke when wayne's dad partner, i think his name was Uncle Jeffery came over and ask me to join him at the common area. He was sipping red wine, smoking cigarettes, WHAT LIFE!!!

due to my eloquent cantonese, we managed to strike a conversation and soon he was giving me a lecture on the history of Yuen Long, how the British government cut out 1 slot of land for every chinese farmer who have a son in the family. it's a chinese tradition, u see. I think I learned a hell lot about the history of H.K today. hahas.

Now his wife jus da pao the extra ingredients, and they finished cooking, another friend of them came over, going down to join them for dinner. will continue to update my trip.

I called Yonna the moment I left the airport!!! Hahaha.. she was so excited, she said her computer crashed, lost my contacts and was actually lookin for me *beaming proud*. we're meeting up this Sunday in Kowloon. but hearing the radio forecast, there would be a typhoon hitting H.K this Sunday. GOD!! please!!! I BEG YOU!!! DON'T DO THIS TO ME!!!

okay okay really gotta go down already, Wayne black face liao, not nice for everyone downstairs waiting for me one person. so CIAOZ!!

2005-09-22T04:50:00.000-07:00

waiting for Mister Kelvin Song to come over and pick us up then we can proceed to the airport to catch my flight at 6.

earlier'on my buddies Andy, Eden and Leroy came over to keep me company = ) thanks guys.

after doing some catching up and chit-chat at the car-park rooftop, they came over and we played a few games of Monopoly. was real fun. keep kao-bei-ing each other. as usual that jian bird Andy won the game. I was the first to be kicked out of the game, damn'it! I'm waiting for a re-match.

brothers forever!! they're the best frienz one can ever have.

and Osy is a freaking irritating piece of shit. 5a.m in the morning don't sleep keep reminding me to get his present.

2005-09-22T04:39:00.000-07:00

2005-09-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

Xueyun, you owe me 5 bucks. I don't care.
50 lots maximum volume. I would have made 2500 bucks.

This page is dedicated to Andy Lin for teaching me so much about bollinger band and parabolic = )

2005-09-19T16:58:00.000-07:00

last nitex Faisal kao bei kao bu wanted to go to this Candy Empire at Millenia Walk to buy some Willy Wonka chocs. I found my Empire next door. the military freak model empire. they had this set of Task Force Rangers and Delta Force Operators model from the Mogadishu War. and what's surprising they actually had this special model to commemorate one of the D-Boys, Delta Master Sgt Gary Gordon who was killed in action. I immediately called Eden down to show him my birthday present. Guys! know what to do liao ar = )))))

I only want that special edition. the Gary Gordon model. they're really heroes. he and another Delta Sniper Randy volunteered to be inserted into the place of a crash site, fought 2 against over hundreds of Somalians firing from all directions, just to protect the crashed pilot. they took 10 over round of bullets all over the body before collapsing. Men of extreme bravery and heroism under fire. and both the snipers that volunteered didn't personally know the pilot. they didn't even know whether anyone was alive inside the crashed chopper. both of them received a post-humous commemoration, medal of honour by the President of United States. first ever awarded 30 years since the end of Vietnam War.

Now u know why I want that model!

earlier this afternoon was at Lavender collecting my passport, afterward heading towards a post office when Ah Kit called me. Coincidentally he was around that vicinity so we met up for lunch at Chinatown. We decided on one stall that sells this what they call it? CoCa Noodles?? U know those especially popular in M'sia. It's basically like Instant noodles. Just some noodles, thrown in with some prawns, slices of fish and some vege. Very messy very Chap Pa Lang. HK they call it Car Boy Noodle. Nothing big deal. Nothing fantastic. But I just like that noodles. brings back childhood memories when I'll eat that noodles cooked by my granny almost everyday after school.

Just a simple liking to a simple bowl of noodles. it's imaginery simplicity that's beautiful.

2005-09-19T02:05:00.000-07:00

2005-09-18T11:05:00.000-07:00

I know these pics are really lousy like nothing. but I didn't really have a choice ritex? at least provides you with a vague impression, I hope.

2005-09-18T03:26:00.000-07:00

so the legendary musical Snow.Wolf.Lake came to an end and left a cute and adorable boy named Justin Ho extremely dissapointed. went to attend Jacky Cheung's Xue Lang Hu this evening.

Managed to snap 2 picture before the usher came over, clutched my shoulder and shouted:"Boy! SP ar?" haha no lar, he told me I wasn't allowed to take any pic. I turned over my shoulder gave him a quick warm-hearted smile and continued snapping another pic after he left. Sensing a certain degree of mistrust, he made a rapid turnabout and grabbed my hair. I paused, composed myself, relented and kept the camera in my jacket before sticking out a middle finger at him after he left.

Will post that 2 blurred picture when I learn how to = ) Give me some time, I'm a slow learner.

Anyway the musical was a real let down after much anticipation.
Firstly, the lyrics were badly written in Chinese that didn't harmonize with the music at all and made no literature sense. What rubbish!!
Secondly, the mainland dancers and singers were irriating with their squeal and cheena slang. I didn't even know who the fuck was on the stage.
Thirdly and most importantly, Jacky appearance was damn limited. He sang so few songs, and the music was really turned down to a minimum level. not that usual "bump" "bump" "bump" adrenaline thumping exhilaration : (

Cheng Hoon (one ex senior from my secondary sch who attended the musical too) was telling me she almost cried, so touched with their singing. I was like pondering over should I take a bus or a cab home at 11. 1130 I literally almost fell asleep. No joke. first time ever. but I was patiently awaiting Jacky's finale "Ai Shi Yong Heng". When he came out in that white suit, I was fully energized. and of cos, the finale was nothing more then a visually spectacular, audible supreme and emotionally satisfying performance to wrap up the earlier blunder = )

The Snow.Wolf.Lake 7 years ago by the original H.K cast was so much so much so much nicer with Sandy Lam, Kit Chan, Tze Tin Wah, Jacky Cheung singing in the original Cantonese duets. But well, I guess the good old days are nowhere to be found. The new trend is everything pro-cheena. I don't blame them. Just look at that freaking gigantic market in China, not to count the 20 million Taiwanese across the straits, the majority mandarin speaking communities and societies in South East Asia. It's about the end for the original H.K Canto flavour and Taiwan Hokkien culture. Everything will be CHEENA CHEENA CHEENA with some slang speaking cheena actor or singer from some cheena province of the big big cheena country in every cheena theatre or concert hall across the globe.

How Depressing = (

2005-09-14T20:56:00.000-07:00

I just realised there's a cake shop hidden behind the durain shop near my hse. You know the "punggol nasi" opposite Upper, next to it got 1 shop sell durain? You walk inside is a store selling various kinds of cakes and durain stuff. I tried the "durain creep" (<--not sure if it's spelt this way) and = ))))) I was smiling all the way in Andrew's car. I was actually rather depressed today. but that durain creep really made my day. I feel like some dog, having a cake to make myself happy for the day. Easily satisfied, yes I am.

I want to try the really tempting 'Blackforest", just looking at the Black currant juice (or what you call it? Jam? nvm you know those purplish blackie stuff wif some black peas in it) scattered on the creamy surface of the 3 layer cake.
I was thinking Ru's gonna love this.
next tym bring u go eat, okay?

you see the few cakes lying there inside the shelf, really got that kind of, that kind of, "eat finish feel like shitting feeling", that sense of satisfaction.

2005-09-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

I'm so so so really dead. Can't get into that usual battle mode for the icas.
only one word to describe the current emotional turmoil I'm experiencing now: SIANZ!!
only one word to describe the current scenario I'll be facing: Fucked-up!!

I really have no clue how I'm gonna save my pretty ass tommorow for the paper.

So damn freaking moodless to do anything. I just feel like opening a pack of chips, place an ash tray and a pack of cigarettes, 2 bowls of noodles, 1 bottle of voda-voda and couch in the living room watching "File of Justice" with Ru. Time is inexistent when we're together infront of a tv.
How nice if we can do that everyday = ) let the world swing pass us for all I care.
I JUST WANT TO WATCH TV WITH YOU!!!

and Yoko is really an incorrigible, irritating piece of shit. salivate all over my leg and barked continuously over and over again in an unbearable squeal the entire afternoon, waking me up from my much deprived sleep. but god knows the agony and excruciation is absoulutely nowhere, and I really mean nowhere as compared to the beast's owner, a larger beast taken the form of a homosapien. that ungrateful piece of crap barked at me for not getting her the hashbrown when I ran down early in the morning at 730a.m, I jest you not, 7.30a.m to buy her macdonald breakfast. Beast!

going to meet osy now....
god be there for me tmr, I pray.

2005-09-10T10:40:00.000-07:00

I was stretching on thin water. Really thin.

I took the last train from Bukit Gombak to Jurong East, did a 25 metres jump across the platfrom from one side to the other and hopped into the other train bound for Outram Park, yeah and that was the last too. Finally after leaving that last East-West train I did a 250 metres sprint within 60 seconds and threw myself into the middle carriage before the last train at Outram Park left.

I'm athletically inclined too, alright?

just browsed through someone's friendster.
and no, you're not at all not lovable. I've seen many more lots of pampered and really spoilt to the core bitches. and no, you're not one of them. I sweated and toiled 4 hours in the kitchen baking that fortune cookies, hand carried ( as in placing it on my palm to prevent breaking up the alphabet) from Andy's place to mine, from mine to chinatown, then to your place, just to prove one thing, and none other, that you're lovable. So stop saying that u're not lovable, okay?

YaY! I got the Takeshi Sorimachi's Poison & Forever lyrics. read in the forum that he wrote the lyrics. Why is life so unfair? some get the looks, the height, the built, the voice, the style, the brains and practically all the girls. what else more you want?

while some get the single double eyelid, the relatively average nothing to be proud of height, the no six pack, no "with this bicep i can squash ur head with just a squeeze", no close to jacky cheung's voice, no brains only nights and nights of hardwork and yeah practically no girls, yeah down to ground zero.

2005-09-07T15:20:00.000-07:00

FUCK!!! SI BEI DU LAN!!

"First Link" really went up 0.005 as my uncle predicted. jus went to check at SGX.
but becos the volume was too little it's not listed in Tradershub and I can't buy that counter!!

I WOULD HAVE MADE MY FORTUNE!!!! and you guys would have lost!! and the price is keep moving up... arggghhhh...

you know that kind of feeling?? like you know the 4D number that will open but your house nearby all the 4D outlet are not open then u open newspaper and see the number opened right there as first prize!!!???

I could have won that 15 dollars wager and brought Ru to eat rabbit = ((((

2005-09-07T02:12:00.000-07:00

I'm a god-damn bloody sinner. My exam's on Friday. And here I am blogging, surfing, chatting wif Eden instead of mugging. Just had the sudden urge to listen to Takeshi Sorimachi's Forever in my computer. (meanwhile shall keep myself occupied by blogging this entry)

This morning was screwed. reach sch at 930a.m only to be notified that class was cancelled. and the next lesson was like what? 3 hours afterwards. I totally detest the thought of spending my time unproductively sleeping in the library or staring at blank space at FC2 when I could be doing something so much more meaningful at home like plucking eyelashes or cutting my toe nails!

I experienced the coldness and warmth of living as a human being today = )
Thanks Annie for smsing me that she'll be having breakfast at FC2
(hinting that I could join her if I have no where else to be at; or did I interpret it wrongly? haha I hope not.)It's always the small gesture that I always appreciate.

I grasped at the fact that inter-personal human relationship are beleaguered with dilapidated conscientious of sincerity and genuineness. to hell with whatever criticism or querulous comments you'd proclaim. I gazed with abhorrence and deplore that dissimulation. Que sera sera, I couldn't care less. I have drawn my distinction and stand my grounds.

there are still people I loved and cherish that make this world a very much better place to live in. they're ppl that constantly reminds me that sincerity and true-blueness still exist.

we've booked Andy's kitchen to bake cookies tmr = ))))))))) YAY!!!!!!
the last tym was really fun. We were like eating and eating every tray after tray in the good name of "testing" for defective product and Andy was like staring intensively at the tupperware, scared we finish it all and he have none to give his dear,darling,sweetheart,Mrs Lin or whatever he calls it.

Eden Toh!!! I brought along my Swiss Army Knife. Try touching my tray I'll amputate your entire right arm.

2005-09-04T16:45:00.000-07:00

nah! this's the chopper code named: "Black Hawk" flown by the Night Stalkers.
Compared it to my cartoon drawing? looks similiar? okay lar at least 60%.

Just finished doing the E- Assessment.*yawns* Guys from my class, remember to complete them before the ICAs. S&P, SCM, Port Agency.

2005-09-04T11:32:00.000-07:00

This's the pic just received from XY. Cheryl's bday at my bbq pit. The reason why I'm smiling so tight is as clearly u can see in the image, Leroy's 100 pound heavy arm is pinning down on my shoulder and one idiot called Eden was poking his finger into my ribs from behind and smiling as if nothing happened.

2005-09-03T11:50:00.000-07:00

HA HA HA HA HA = )

managed to download the whole album soundtrack of Beach Boys. Super zai the songs.
can someone teach me jap? I want to learn that song Takeshi Sorimachi - Forever. wonder what's the lyrics about? but anyway jus listening to the tune already very "high".

ask me to send if u want.

last nitex went down to Superbowl to trash Eden 40 points in Billard. after he lost enough we went outside to breathe some nicotine. then came along one gal and her bf. I turned around and yelled: "Cynthia!!".

Cynthia was my Da Jie Da when I was really really small. She works for my father as a salesgirl many many years ago at the old watch shop at Bedok. When I was really small she would bring me go NTUC shopping, buy "see-hum" then da pao bring back to the shop and eat while my father's out. She's actually only older then me like maybe 5 or 6 years I think. I know you're thinking that kind of Auntie already. Been like also 6,7 years never see her after my father closed down that shop in Bedok. We exchanged numbers and promised to chat sometime again.

that's why I always say!! Life's so unpredictable and which is where the beauty of it lies too.

"My mum always says life's like a box of chocalates. you'll never know what u'd get"
- Forest Gump

2005-09-02T01:10:00.000-07:00

Capt Rosli made a prediction last discussion I had with him. Crude Oil price will peak 70 dollars a barrel soon. and true enough, it did. with the sudden surge in the price of this ever-needed commodity that's the fundamental of almost every entire industry in the world and have such extensive significances, the arrows start pointing to who's to be blamed.

Several classmates raised a few questions during Bunker lecture about why the hike?
after some discussion with Capt Rosli they came to a conclusion---> the high-handed policy of the most powerful nation ever seen in the lights of human mankind:
United States of America.

I beg to differ. but didn't wanted to argue that's why I kept my mouth shut. Not that I couldn't argue further.

actually I also heard quite a lot of negative stuff from others about the all too-powerful dominant and supreme Americanism in the 21st century.

getting kinda sick of it. things are not that self-explanatory as perceived.

I'm not an advocate of Uncle Sam. But I just feel that sometimes people take for granted what others has done for the world over the years and start finger pointing at only the bad stuff.

think about it, who've been providing security for us over the years in almost every region in the world? if the aircraft carriers flying the American flag was not docked at the harbours in Japan and maintaining their presence all over here providing a cover of military deterence, North Korea would have invaded the South long time ago and China wouldn't give a damn so much about preserving economic stability in the eastern hemisphere and fired their surface missiles into Taipei whenever a chance emerge. my point is: remember the words of wisdom from Mao Tze Tung: "politics emerge from the barrels of a gun". it's gun against gun and this is the real world.

back to something more close to home. in the very initial stage of the aftermath of Tsunami, do you know which first country came into Aceh organising and sending aid immediately after the disaster? U.S Navy choppers flown in from their aircraft carrier within the first hour without even for the Indonesians to call for help.

don't want to go in depth discussing such stuff here. but just hope that those people know their facts and history more before making their comments on current affairs.

Of course every country will seek their own interests and in the process compromise others. It's the way of the world.

Just imagine this scenario: during the 1960s Cold War, United States bringing in the ideology of democracy, free market capitalism versus the Soviet Union pushing for Marxist-Leninist Communism and Socialism. If the Khrushchev Politburo would have prevailed and ruled the world since, what would the world be like now?

Given the 2 evil, I rather the Americans to have stayed. don't u?

2005-09-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

Alas! my computer's back in action = )

but lost every single damn thing I had in my old hard disk. and I wasted 120 bucks buying that new disk. My computer's now so empty, feels so naked *face red*.

been quite sometime since I wrote anything here, suddenly don't know how to go about starting. hahahas.

made a last minute decision to go back my ex secondary school and wish a few of my favourite teachers HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY. spent 30 bucks buying 2 cards and 2 gift.=(
*heart ache*

but I was telling myself I'll be conscripted next year. It's now or never. should jus get something as remembrance for these people who once cared and taught me so many things, invaluable stuff.
All the teachers said the same first thing to me when they saw me:
"JUSTINNNNNEEEEEE!!! OMG!!OMG!! U looked so decent now!! (disapproving look)"

I was thinking did I really looked so "indecent" during those time in sec sch?
I think they really prefered looking at the old me.

Mrs Chong invited us over her place for X'mas : )))

anyway Andrew came later over in Wayne's dad car (His father's in HK; that's why) and we over to the FLORIDA for a swim. Nice pool compared to mine. Damn! why everyone's condo's like full of super duper fun facilities except mine.

Couldn't take any more shit on. went home straight after that and slept for 12 hours till this morning.

ONE MORE WEEK TO ICA!!!! gonna study like a dog for this period of time. intend to work a few days afterwards at Andy's Dad Bottling Factory and pack my bags for H.K.

2005-08-22T16:05:00.000-07:00

Damn my computer. Feel so uneasy updating my blog here in the free access lab with so many people stalking around me; self conscious yes I'am.

went to watch this movie "Bewitched" last sat with really zero and that movie was a really no-brainer. Don't! I repeat DON'T! ever watch it. I couldn't even make out if I was watching a movie, a sitcom or a drama or was it a jumbled-up plot of the various element w/o a storyline? but there again it's the company that matters : ) and I indeed enjoyed it.

was preparing to sprint out of the class one day last week when I saw this classmate of mine hugging this big hard book bearing the title: "Black Hawk Down". I immediately shouted out: "Halt!" and rapidly snatched that book from her and ran home as fast as my legs could bring me. Couldn't stop reading it. Was having dinner with Ru at Jurong Point on Friday nitex when I happened to pass by this video store and god knows the temptation when I saw that dvd: "Black Hawk Down"!!! Okay I wasted another 20 bucks buying that home.

I especially like a conversation in one scene of the movie:
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(15minutes prior to leaving base camp for mission)

Sgt Eversmann: You'd know it's kinda weird, nice beach, nice sun, could almost be a nice place to visit, huh?

Sgt Hoot : Almost.

Sgt Eversmann: Why?, You don't think we should be here, don't you?

Sgt Hoot : You know what I think? It doesn't really matters what I think. Once that first bullet flies past your head, politics all that shit just goes right out of the window.

Sgt Eversmann: (goes quiet)

Sgt Hoot : Just watch your four corners and bring your men back.

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don't you think it's so cool the way they speak? simple straightforward language with so many philosophy and idealism behind it?

I was really bored earlier at Rosli's Bunker lecture. picking up a piece of paper from the notes I decided to unleash the hidden, unknown artistic feel beneath me. drew an impression of a black hawk. Marie was kinda impressed. I was too actually. hahas with myself. upon request, I generously agreed to draw a complete impression of a scene in the movie for her collection. it's kinda fun, sometimes, to be able to draw something out of your mind. expressing your thoughts, visually.

Okay I make an offer. anyone of you guys want one piece of my masterpiece, leave me a comment, alright?

it's 4p.m and I'm still in school. kinda unusual for a person like me. just didn't feel like going home today. don't know why. maybe I'll go direct to caligraphy class later from here. suddenly felt so lonely. alone here in the lab. alone having dinner. alone going to class. alone in everything in my life.

miss Ru who's watching a movie now with another guy. YOU CHEATED ON ME!!
miss Eden who's probably somewhere in school talking rubbish.

anyway thanks Eden for coming down last nitex. appreciate it that you'd come down to Serangoon everytime we meet. and screw U Rene, who lives 2 street away from me and had the cheek to tell us he's lazy to come out.

Andrew msged me earlier to inform me he'd booked his ticket. YAY!! we are finally going to H.K = )